I was getting frustrated with the latest brick wall that Nina threw at me. And there has been a lot of negative stuff going on in my life, mainly my mother being sick. So I have been whining about not being able to do what I want with the horse.
Last week I was not able to ride at all, too many obligations and responsibilities to take care of. By the end of the week I was exhausted. Sunday I went to the barn determined to find time to ride. I didn't care if all she wanted to do was walk, I just wanted to sit on a horse's back. I needed to. It's my therapy. So I let go of all my frustrations and just enjoyed having a horse to get on. And had a great ride. And had an even better one today.
I can't do what I want in my riding right now....so what. I can at least get on a horse and let my tension fade away. It's better than meditation.